"You’re back again,
and I’ve forgotten
everything I’ve learned in your
absence. I give you my knees,
my thighs, my hands,
and you take them because
you think I know better now.

This is the problem.
I disappear inside of you
and make you fish me back
out when it’s all over.
I call myself Lonely so that, when
you come along, I forget my name.

This is the problem.
I don’t know how to keep myself
when you’re around.
I don’t know how to let love
inside and follow after it.
I don’t know how to
keep the keys.

So if I ever tell you that
I still haven’t figured out how
to kiss like I’m not giving
something away, don’t laugh.
Don’t tell me I’m being dramatic
or that my poet is showing.

I am an empty bed for you,
do you understand?
I am a vacant hand.
I am a broken record that will
only sing your name
and it isn’t pretty,
the way I give myself,
my magic away like it’s nothing.
It isn’t pretty at all."

Caitlyn Siehl, "the Well and the Wisher" (via alonesomes)

(via b3ar-th3-gr3at)

"

The fact is, a 14-year-old girl may be capable of agreeing to sex with a 49-year-old man, but she doesn’t have the emotional and mental maturity to consent. I was 25 before I realized that every man I’d slept with as a teenager was a pedophile. It seemed to me that since I’d courted the attention, that I was fully culpable. What teenager believes she is not mentally or emotionally capable of full consent? I thought I was an adult, although when I look at the picture of myself from the time period above, I see a child.

I thought I was the exception for these men, the girl so precocious and advanced that it superseded social norms. I thought that I was “older than my chronological age.”

It never occurred to me as a young sexually active teen that the adult men I had relationships with may have been manipulating me, that they had designs and motives I couldn’t see from my limited child’s perspective.

"

Emily, XOJANE, "The Myth of the Teenage Temptress, or Why a Young Girl Can Not Consent to Sex with an Adult Man"

Everyone should read this article if they haven’t already. The anecdotes are upsetting and carry major TW (pedophilia, graphic depictions of sex), but the message is just so on point. 

(via owning-my-truth)

I literally can’t stress this enough

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